Kissed by Mr Sun on 1st Sept 2008 ... Nice!!

On Merdeka weekend, group of 8 of us just hiked to the highest to of SEA mountain - Mount Kinabalu at 4097m above the sea level. Being on the top of that mountain, I am so proud of being Malayian and holding the flag to celebrate this 51st Independence day. There were a lot of inspirations during this trips. Bits by bits, and there were all so wonderful!!

While I was walking i was so much into the stairs. Step by step that was so careful and so concentrate, afraid of any false steps that would make me fall. The fear of falling down and the fear of getting lost were there, undeniable.However, is it not that it reflected our true life? I asked to train myself to be brave for every steps that I keen to take. I also learnt to have 1 step at a time, and make it steady, and it forward patiently. It was inspired when I was so tired and having sore knees while walking for more than 5km during the journey. Sometimes we want to forward, but i found that having 2 knees in same step at a time is even more tiring than having 1 step and 1 leg at a time, having one in front and one at the back. This is the way to progress.

During the journey i found that resting is very important to prolong the energy for the whole journey. At the same time it also allows laziness to creep in. We rest because we need to walk long, but when we rest too long, it caused our body to slow down. It becomes harder to resume the heart rate. In our life we always give reasons to ourselves for not doing things that seems difficult and consumes a lot of energy. As mother nature says so, and that is built-in characteristics for human beings. Laziness creept it undoubtly. Lazy to think, to act, to run an extra mile. Therefore, keep up is always the word i reminded myself during the journey. Even i slowed down, but i keep it up.

Thank God, these are all wonderful revelation and learnings in this journey.

Story of a drowning kitten

Can you imagine how you would feel... a drowning kitten who struggle so hard for its life, trying to use the powerless jaws on front legs, squeeced as much as possible on the forehead, trying to give all its strength to climb up the side walls of a drain... she was hysterical, breath unsteadily, felt like the whole world is left behind, can't hear or see anything but her focus on breathing non stop. The oxygen can never be enough for the little nose and vein to get the blood stream down, it can never get enough to inhale suficiently... afraid there is not even enough strength to have the heart pumping, the beat is just too fast to catch up forever... this is the time one could wish to have a different system to survive, an alternative other than the heartbeat. She was saved, yet she was shaking heavily. she can't walk but just lied down restlessly. How much she thought she can just stay on the green grass for another one minute. But she was alerted, and she knows she can't, she has to continue the fight.... don't fall sleep, because sleep will never come awake to see the world. So she bearly survived. Struggled again to wake up to see the first light shined through her eyes. She know her destiny and time to wake up. Without delay, she was on the move, one step another, dragging along the weaken body. Just hope this is another day that nobody will see her suffering through. There is no reason to earn pity from another eyes. So she walked straight and see straight, heading the way back home. Imagine of a nice warm house just on the other end of the road, there is no hesitation but dragging along. Soon she know she will be home...

This story dedicated to a special friend who had been through the suffering just like the drowning kitten in his life. So sudden yet no preparation. How many of us can get through? I always felt for people who can describe, because to anybody else the situation is indescribable if not experiencing every bit of it. I believe every beating of his heart is precious and every laughter is wonderful to him and for him...Just hope he can get through the suffering. In God, we trust.

Creating a Memory

Today i have attended a forum. There is this story that shared by a brother regarding "creating a memory":

Ken Blancard – One minute manager shared a story about a business consultant in grocery chain training more than 3,000 employees to approach their jobs with the goal of creating a memory for their customers; to distinguish their store from all the others
When Johnny, a 19 year old bag boy with Down syndrome heard this, his first response was “I’m just a bag boy” – He went home to share with his mom what the consultant had said
Johnny and mom pondered how he could create a memory for his customer
He had a habit of collecting inspirational sayings he often read; decided to print out these sayings and placing one in each of his customers’ bag and say “I’ve included some of my favorite sayings in your bag in the hope they will encourage you today. Thanks for shopping with us.”
After a few weeks, an amazing thing happened. One day the store manager noticed all the customers was lined up at only one cashier station even though there were other stations open. Manager panicked, thinking other stations were broken. Actually, customers wanted to come through Johnny’s line in order to get his sayings of the day!
One woman told the manager, “I used to comes to the store once a week, but now I come every day!” Johnny’s exa,ple spread to other departments in the store – florist giving a flower to each florist customer, meat department put Snoopy stickers on each meet with special greeting – The act of one bag boy changed the entire climate of the store
Like Johnny, Jesus was all about creating memories. How can you create a memory for someone in your workplace today?


Just over at lunch, a friend of mine, who just diagnosed with a kind of heart disease telling me this - "I don't know what to give you in return, what I could give you is visible, but do you know that what you given to me is invisible?" this message has been pondering in my mind for the rest of this afternoon. I am surprised to hear this from this friend. He showed me what is appreciation, just a simple sentence that actually reminds of me that when is the last time i show my appreciation to the loved ones?

Creating a memory - i actually didn't realize how much i have been creating a memory in his life. It is just a normal friendship thing. However, when he was diagnosed with that sickness, i had been encouraging him with God's words and just hope that he will always live his life to the fullest. He ever told me that there is no one around him that actually said this kind of things to him. It all looks new to him and unique. I believe in God's work, and maybe that is the purpose why i met him and why we can get along well. Although his length of life is so much unpredictable, but I just give thanks to God and continue to pray for his strength...

Being the GROWN up now

Today i am getting older, by age, .... yeah....

Not trying to sound sad, but got into some arguments with colleagues on some work issues recently and really found a big reap - not in age for today, but in the mind. It is all about learning to work with people, like what WO always tell me all these dragons that he learnt in his "dealing with difficult people" Dragon is all about hard core of a person's character, which is also a protective shield that a person put on to uphold the behavior. When the dragon of a person is exposed, it is easily identified. Yet when our own dragon exposed, that is the hardest and most difficult to deal with. Yes, a lot of time we see people's dragon but not ours. With the new grown by age and by this new year, whatever resolution it is, i have set my goals.
1) be peaceful, especially when argument arrives. I found 99% of time we will have no solutions when emotion is involved
2) be the one to back off during the 'hot' argument will appreciate and gain more credibility after the argument ( i got to learn about this)
3) Learn to have self-control (I am not young anymore, should not be so problematic onwards, right)
4) State positive sentences upfront before negative if had to ( i think i am the one who always straight to the point and that is why i never think much about 'beautify' my sentences before blurt out from my mouth)

Growth lesson never ends, but at least we are improving ourselves little by little in faith... Thank God who has given me the discernment!

Complaint vs Comment

It had been quite a while that i didn't come back for this blog. What a lazy blogger i am. Dec 2007 marked a very very important month for my life journey. Being newly wed, I got so much to do and so tensions about welcoming this new life. Although it seems normal to him, but to me, Gosh, that is just full of things to adjust myself!

We had been discussing about Complaints vs Comments. To me by definitions, if somebody given me a "comment" it means what i do or say can be improve to better. When somebody given me a "complaint" means what i have done or said is wrong or negatively impact another. To me, complaint followed by comment is best to build a person's characteristics. Being newly wed, one of the biggest complaint that he alwasy said to me is that i got a lot of complaints. Complaints about life, work, friendship, and even our relationship... i sometimes also realized that i do make complaints, but i also comments. And important thing is not to mix the 2. I found it frustrated when these 2 are mixed and i was pre judged. i found it difficult to deal with if another pre judged you with some biased opinion. Given it is at work or at home or when you deal with your friendships stuff. Noises are being filtered, and more than 70% only what we want to hear will pass through the brain. I am upset, because my so called 'noises' probably didn't pass through at all. Disappointment & no responses created more complaints and comments.

Learning - 1) Clarify if you are making a complaint or a comment. If there is nothing wrong with the current situation, you make comment only to hope for improvement, which may not guaranteed to satisfy your need. In this case, you have the live with it or walk away with it. 2) make complaint if there is direct and great impact on you physically or emotionally, it can be grievance, but later make sure you add a comment of how to make it improve.